As I mentioned earlier, I was fascinated by my visit to the UK and I made plans to return. For one to travel alone abroad from Africa, to seek a better life takes guts! I went back as planned. It wasn’t easy but I hustled. That was when I learned how to get out of one’s comfort zone.
There were times I would ask myself, ‘hey girl, is it you doing all this?’ This was because prior to this time, I had never done such rigorous work before; working in factories, working as a kitchen assistant, to working as a childminder. I did it all.
I would sometimes laugh at myself, but I cried most of the times.
It taught me something though; that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 NKJV. I began to renew my mind; the old mindset started giving way. The lies of the devil: that you can’t live in a cold climate, that you cannot do what your counterparts are doing, that you are worthless, all these negative thoughts started giving way. And I challenged myself that I can do it, push forward, press on and reach wherever I aspire to be, and be who God wants me to be! Shout hallelujah! if you believe so.
I saw my doctor one day with a complaint of numbness around my jaw area. She said, “Umm it could be something to do with your nerves so let’s do a scan and see what’s going on.” I did the scan and when she saw the results, she remarked shockingly, “this is not what I’m expecting but I’m glad it’s been found.”
When I enquired about the outcome, she advised that I see a neurosurgeon right away for further explanations since the scan came back showing that I had brain aneurysm! What is that? What will happen? What brought this? Oh, I had a thousand and one questions so an appointment was scheduled for me to see the neurosurgeon.
Eventually, the time came for me to see the surgeon. He was so blunt, abrupt and harsh, I would say. He told me what aneurysm is; a bulged out weakened blood vessel or artery in the brain, that can rupture and cause internal bleeding. He presented to me that I had to do an open head surgery, while making me aware of all the possible complications that could arise. He also made me aware that if I didn’t do the surgery, I had all these risks that I could be living with. Imagine being given this news alone. I either had to consent to an open head surgery or walk around with what they say was a time bomb in my head.
The song writer says, “we have an anchor, that keeps the soul, steadfast and sure while the billows roll. Fastened to the rock which cannot move, grounded firm and deep in the Saviour’s love.”
I prayed, God what do I do? This is scary but you are my hope and I know you will not forsake me. Indeed, Christ in you, the hope of glory.
The journey continues…
